Overeating Problem with Obsesive Compulsive Patterns
by S. F.
Eloisa, first i just want to say thank you. i realize that you must stay very busy answering questions about eft. on my end, however it is great that i have someone with a complete understanding on the subject that i can call on with my questions. your time is greatly appreciated.
first, i briefly need to give you a little background info on myself. 32 years old, rough childhood. abusive, abandonment. diagnosed obsessive compulsive. recovering opiate addict. on opiate recovery maintenance with suboxone. (opiate maintenance drug)
for my last year of high school, and about five years after, i had super high confidence, self discipline, and a lean muscular healthy physique. some underlying desire,,, a feeling of being incomplete, a void that persisted drove me to experiment with drugs, and next thing that i know im hooked on opiates for about ten years now.
not only drugs, but that same void made me somewhat successful to a point. i obsessed with creating a business, obsessed with knowledge on any subject that interested me. im that kind of obsessive compulsive. i dont count tiles on the floor. anyway, meanwhile other areas of my life are suffering.
while i excel in a few areas, my weight has climbed about 70 pounds, and my confidence, and self discipline plummeted. i know that i have a lot of work to do. but if i can resolve this underlying reason for overeating, and slim down, i believe that my confidence will rise, self discipline will rise, and start kind of a chain reaction to help me attain my goals.
i have read and researched eft enough to say that i have the basic concept. for some time now. i have tried it, and honestly i am not seeing any results. i am wanting to lose 70 pounds. as much as i want to, my discipline isnt great enough. i eat and feel pathetic and remorseful afterward, yet am powerless it seems in stopping. i have been doing it for about three consecutive days, and my desire to eat is just as great as ever.
what could i be doing wrong? i phrase it," even though i am fat,, even though i eat to much, even though i want carbs, etc, i love and accept myself. am i doing something wrong. i know you cant diagnose me through an email, but this is all i got now. any advice you have is greatly appreciated. please tell me how i can get the results that i read about everyone else getting from eft. thank you, thank you, thank you,,,,,